A LETTER TO MY FUTURE
Dearest future, i can't help but to write you this letter, i just want to report my past and my present and all they have done to me, so that you can treat me differently and nicely when you come.
My past and my present have not been entirely great, at some point, i laud their efforts, there were times when in my past i cried every night on my bed, soaking my pillow because of pain, but my present sent me time, and it is healing every wound.
There were times i was confused, not even knowing what you hold. Afraid to look into you, and when i did, you were too dark to see through, it only made me more confused.
There were times in my past i didn't realise how much of a gift waking up everyday was, i just lived my life as the day comes. My present has thought me that there is more to sleeping and waking up and more to the sky than just it's blue, black, and white. I am learning well.
There were times i didn't know the difference between right and wrong, everything seemed right. I had a bad judgemement, and so i made lots of mistakes.
There were also times in my past, i couldn't sleep, my mind was flooded with worries, my heart carried so much burden, but there was no one to share it with, and so i bore it alone, and because of that, in my present, i can't share. I guess i am used to bearing burdens alone. I won't forget to tell you dearest future that it was at that moment, i learnt every words of Whitney Houston's 'i look to you' even though i didn't know who i was looking to.
I have really made bad decisions in my past, regrettable decisions but my present has thought me not to regret anything, but to forgive myself. I am doing that and doing just fine.
My present battled with my past, guess what good future! My present won, and so it brought me changes, not the Buhari kind of changes.
There were times i didn't know me, i didn't know my stand in life, i sort answers to lots of questions, i wanted clarity on a lot of things. My present has helped me to answer some of these questions leaving some for you dearest future to answer.
There were times i didn't know how to react to situations, i didn't know how to treat or deal with people, how to react to every of their actions, and so i made a mess of relationships, and made situation worse than it was. But now, i am gentling learning, i am taking it bits by bits, one step at a time.
Dearest future, i can't write it all, i can't even remember everything now, but i anticipate your coming with so much excitement and pleasure,i am waiting to learn more from you. I hope you will bring me better changes. Let me not be like a Nigerian whose hope and expectancy for a better change is dashed. I hope that with you, it will be all smiles and no sadness.
May you be filled with all the answers to my prayers, goodness, love, kindness, and everything that makes life worth living, enjoyable, purposeful, fulfilling, and pleasurable.
Your one and only lovely owner.
Vivian Sunday.
😘😘😘😘
My past and my present have not been entirely great, at some point, i laud their efforts, there were times when in my past i cried every night on my bed, soaking my pillow because of pain, but my present sent me time, and it is healing every wound.
There were times i was confused, not even knowing what you hold. Afraid to look into you, and when i did, you were too dark to see through, it only made me more confused.
There were times in my past i didn't realise how much of a gift waking up everyday was, i just lived my life as the day comes. My present has thought me that there is more to sleeping and waking up and more to the sky than just it's blue, black, and white. I am learning well.
There were times i didn't know the difference between right and wrong, everything seemed right. I had a bad judgemement, and so i made lots of mistakes.
There were also times in my past, i couldn't sleep, my mind was flooded with worries, my heart carried so much burden, but there was no one to share it with, and so i bore it alone, and because of that, in my present, i can't share. I guess i am used to bearing burdens alone. I won't forget to tell you dearest future that it was at that moment, i learnt every words of Whitney Houston's 'i look to you' even though i didn't know who i was looking to.
I have really made bad decisions in my past, regrettable decisions but my present has thought me not to regret anything, but to forgive myself. I am doing that and doing just fine.
My present battled with my past, guess what good future! My present won, and so it brought me changes, not the Buhari kind of changes.
There were times i didn't know me, i didn't know my stand in life, i sort answers to lots of questions, i wanted clarity on a lot of things. My present has helped me to answer some of these questions leaving some for you dearest future to answer.
There were times i didn't know how to react to situations, i didn't know how to treat or deal with people, how to react to every of their actions, and so i made a mess of relationships, and made situation worse than it was. But now, i am gentling learning, i am taking it bits by bits, one step at a time.
Dearest future, i can't write it all, i can't even remember everything now, but i anticipate your coming with so much excitement and pleasure,i am waiting to learn more from you. I hope you will bring me better changes. Let me not be like a Nigerian whose hope and expectancy for a better change is dashed. I hope that with you, it will be all smiles and no sadness.
May you be filled with all the answers to my prayers, goodness, love, kindness, and everything that makes life worth living, enjoyable, purposeful, fulfilling, and pleasurable.
Your one and only lovely owner.
Vivian Sunday.
😘😘😘😘
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